Process or Place?

Is Recovery a Process or a Place?

This is a question I continue to struggle with. I don’t know the answer.

At times, I believe recovery is a place – a place of freedom, hope, and positivity. I get so busy enjoying life that I forget that worrying about food or weight was once commonplace. I meal prep to save time during the week instead of to meticulously count calories. I workout because I like feeling strong and fit. I am happy, I am free.

And then, I let my guard down.

It happens quickly – a glance in the mirror that leaves me lingering a little too long, an old picture on Timehop – and I’m heading back to that dark place.

Clothes don’t feel like they fit right. My stomach isn’t flat enough. How am I here again?

It’s these times I guess recovery is a process.

Although I don’t know that there will ever be a point where recovery is only a place, I am thankful that I am currently in a place of recovery far more often than not. I never thought I would make it to this point.

I’ve shared this before, but when thinking about the process of recovery, this has helped me so much!

Autobiography In Five Short Chapters

Chapter I

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost… I am hopeless.

It isn’t my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter II

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don’t see it.

I fall in again.

I can’t believe I am in this same place.

But it isn’t my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter III

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it there.

I still fall in… it’s a habit… but,

my eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

Chapter IV

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

Chapter V

I walk down another street.

– Portia Nelson

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Recovery Warriors

Last week, a friend recommended I listen to a Note To Self podcast about paper books vs ebooks. I am an avid lover of holding a paper book while reading…and the podcast definitely agreed with my viewpoint! 🙂

That podcast (really great, highly recommend the series), led to more podcasts and before long, I was listening to a podcast on each of my long walks with S. One of the podcasts I happened to stumble across was Recovery Warriors.

I had used the Recovery Warriors app in the past, I follow them on Instagram, but somehow, I hadn’t found the podcast yet! But, after downloading a few and listening to them on walks over the past few days, I wanted to share them with you guys!

Recovery Warriors is a recovery oriented group founded by Jessica Raymond. They have a presence on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter and more! The Recovery Warrior website has tons of articles, links, and resources dedicated to helping others in recovery.

So far, my favorite podcast has been episode 5: 30 Lessons Learned in Recovery. In this episode, Jessica shares 30 lessons she has learned throughout both life and recovery. Each lesson can be made applicable to your own life and journey.

I can’t wait to continue listening to the Recovery Warrior podcasts! I hope you guys find them as interesting and as helpful as I have! 🙂